Disappearing Seems To Be My Thing...

Hey, all. Apparently, I haven't posted since November. It is now a new decade. Whoops. I tend to do that. It's probably the biggest reason that I don't have friends. Anyway, I'm back, hopefully no more ghosting my followers.

This website is what I want to do. I mean, other than my actual career, I want to help others by writing about my experiences and sharing advice I have. So, why is it that I'm having such a hard time sitting down and writing lately? It's definitely not that I don't want to. It's not that I can't. It's not that I'm an awful procrastinator. I think that even after all these years of living, I'm still afraid to talk about things. I'm afraid I'll be seen as "attention-seeking," "dramatic" or "exaggerating." This website is the most open I have ever been with anyone thus far. It's a scary thing dealing with my mental health and the well being of it.

There's such a stigma with this mental health thing. It's awful. If you've got a mental health issue, like myself, I'm sure you know exactly what I mean. It's terrifying being so vulnerable, especially online, hence why I am doing this anonymously. In our society, those with mental health issues are completely overlooked or looked down upon. It's not fair. I have no faith in the judicial system either when in charge of the fate of an abused child, such as myself. My mental health, when I was involved in a court case against my abusive father, was made to be a joke. My own lawyer told me to my face that I was "faking it all for the attention." Mental health is not seen as a necessity to take care of. It's not seen as an epidemic. It's not seen as a sign that maybe we need to do a better job of being human. Especially when you're dealing with a child/adolescent, mental health needs to be taken seriously. So many young people are taking their lives. Obviously, adults are as well. It's just an entirely awful situation. Let's end that stigma.

I'm going to make a promise to you guys. Mainly, because I need to hold myself accountable, but I also owe it to my 56 subscribers to give you consistent posts. I promise to post at least once a week, if not more. If I can't meet that goal, I will update you guys on Facebook/Twitter/Instagram. We're in this together. I'll continue sharing my hard stuff, as well as moments of strength and happiness. While I'm doing that, I'd like you guys to try to share as well. Whether it's just with me or in the forums on my site, whichever you're more comfortable with. Let's all be there for each other, and, most importantly, ourselves. The hardest part of recovering is reaching out for help and becoming vulnerable. This is your safe spot to do that. Let me know how I can help, and I will.

Love, Aylin

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National Domestic Violence Hotline: 1- 800-799-7233

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-TALK (8255); www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org

Suicide Prevention, Awareness, and Support: www.suicide.org

Lifeline Crisis Chat: https://www.contact-usa.org/chat.html

Crisis Text Line: Text REASON to 741741 (free, confidential and 24/7)

Self-Harm Hotline: 1-800-DONT CUT (1-800-366-8288)

Family Violence Helpline: 1-800-996-6228

Planned Parenthood Hotline: 1-800-230-PLAN (7526)

National Council on Alcoholism & Drug Dependency: 1-800-622-2255

The Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386 or text “START” to 678678. Standard text messaging rates apply. Available 24/7/365. (Provides crisis intervention and suicide prevention services to lesbian, gay, bisexual, transgender, queer & questioning—LGBTQ—young people under 25.)

Veterans Crisis Line: https://www.veteranscrisisline.net

(The above resources are obtained from https://www.psycom.net/get-help-mental-health)